Some things are hard to do....

For me lately?... it has been acknowledging my priorities and boundaries. It's always easy to blame everything on MS but I don't like to do that because I know other things are at play like arthritis, menopause, and just getting older. The thing I blame MS for at this point is FATIGUE which makes all the other stuff a lot worse. Fatigue is not just being tired or out of energy, it's all consuming.(like falling into a well, unable to get out and it is too hard to even try) I wish just a nap or a rest could make it end but it isn't that simple. I've been dealing with arthritis in my right hip and bursitis or rotor cuff issues in my right shoulder(a hairdressers occupational hazard) and I still have numbness in my right hand.(have for 5 years so until they repair nerve damage it's my norm) So with all of that I usually make a joke to myself about cutting off my right side and how life would be better! (just kidding of course) ....back to my priorities and boundaries... I've been having to reevaluate my work. I start off the day energetic and planning for dinner after etc. then by 2 or 3 I'm spent and by the time I get home I just can't bring myself to have the energy for cooking.  Being the author of a recipe book I am still formulating new recipes and possibilities for my blog and blog followers but lately it has had to take a back burner. (no pun intended) I've also had to reformulate my work schedule and reform my clientele. That has been the hardest thing to do because I've had some of my clients for more than 15 years but some are now just too hard for me to do. I can only hope that they will be understanding. ....

Every crazy weekend!!

It seems that every weekend has been crazy lately! I'm almost afraid to answer the phone! Let's see.....going back a few weekends....it snowed and my daughter drove through it with the car (our car)we just gave her!(to drive not own) Thankfully nothing happened to her but a semi driving by flung a rock and cracked the windshield! Then the following weekend she was running late to her job (she live approx.70 miles away) and said she couldn't start the car. So while she was working we checked the car out and found it had been visited by pack rats which chewed some wiring so she had to leave the car with us to be fixed. Then today the computer was having a malfunction which took my husband all day to remedy. During all this my daughter and her boyfriend decided to buy a dog! Of course we babysat today....9 week old border collie...he's soooo cute! Now we're talking about two students in college full time plus.(plus means 20+ credits per semester).....as a parent you know the worries! I just have been putting myself on auto pilot because stress and I do not get along! Then....(yes, there's more).... our other vehicle has been having problems and now after hundreds of dollars it still remains in the shop! I really need a vacation. I haven't had one for many years! In the complete need zone now! Thinking of California. I love California or maybe Illinois (Chicago)since I have family there. Or maybe New Mexico for the weekend! I don't know .......please say a prayer.... God will direct.....I'm open! As far as MS? I've been too preoccupied to think about it.......Oh....In the midst of all this I managed to make some chocolate chip cookies.....the recipe I've been working on for some time to eventually post on my other blog site....they were okay but still not perfect!!!Damn!!! Soon I promise! It's just when I make them I must eat them (I'm not one to waste) so whats for breakfast? maybe an egg,,, and a cookie.....what for lunch? maybe a tuna wrap and a cookie....what's for dinner? maybe shrimp scampi and a cookie! get the gist?  I may end up disliking chocolate chip cookies by the time I arrive at the ultimate!.......'til next time.....Jan